Bello...the soul mate...what is the purpose of an individual who you are so strongly attracted to? The immediate recognition that makes your heart skip a beat, your stomach flipping and flopping, and your mouth getting instantly dry...Why are they part of the human experience?
If we are the sum of the whole, then the soul mate cannot make you whole? He is only a part of the whole. Right?
Bello has entered the building!
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Sunday, December 20, 2009
The Tribe
I have spoken before about the tribe...how the tribe influences all of what we do and how we think....but we all come to that moment when we realize maybe just maybe the tribe doesn't have it all right....
My point of realization was nothing dramatic. It was jumpsuits. My mother hated them. She found them not to be functional and very problematic. So I never wore one...I had spent years hearing how they were difficult to put on, or take off, they presented challenges when one needed to use the washroom, they were either too short in the rise or too long in the rise, too small up top or to big down below,etc....you get the point.
Sure enough as the wardrobe gods would have it, I come across, a beautiful black halter style with flared legs jumpsuit. Perfect for the upcoming New Year's party, I was attending with my then boyfriend. It was eloquent, simple, not over stated and with different shoes, I was sure I could wear it to a great club party on a summer evening! It even met the price test.
There I was staring at this garment, thinking my mother would be so disappointed in my choice. I could hear the lecture in my head on how I wasted my money on such frivolous garment. However, courage prevailed and I thought, I should at least try it on...let's face it...it would either be too short in the rise, too long in the legs, too big or too small somewhere...but what would it hurt to try it on. As well,it was on sale for 50% of its' original price. You just cannot dismiss a bargain.
So sheepishly, I slipped into the dressing room to try on my contraband item...I waited to make sure no one was looking before I stepped outside of the dressing room because I was sure the other woman would be giving me that look for wearing that jumpsuit. Let's face it, if my tribe thought jumpsuits were bad; others must think the same.
Doesn't the thing fit perfectly....not too short, not too long, not too small nor too big....the wardrobe gods are now playing hardball. To make matters worse, the sales lady comes walking in to make sure I am okay. She loves it on me and then she starts calling in other women who were in the store to come look. I had women gushing, telling me that it was made for me and I would be nuts to walk out this store without it. Wardrobe gods had the full court press on....
I stood there bewildered...They liked the jumpsuit...surely,there would be one woman who would have wise counsel and tell me different. I began to ask them " but wouldn't it be a pain to use the restroom in this?"...They now all looked at me like I was nuts...one woman told me not to be silly...it would be no more difficult than anything else I wore....Another told me if she looked that slim in it, she would buy one in every colour.
Bella is very entrenched in her tribal law; even violence can be justified.
I want to wish everyone a great holiday season. Enjoy be safe and most of all, enjoy the tribe
My point of realization was nothing dramatic. It was jumpsuits. My mother hated them. She found them not to be functional and very problematic. So I never wore one...I had spent years hearing how they were difficult to put on, or take off, they presented challenges when one needed to use the washroom, they were either too short in the rise or too long in the rise, too small up top or to big down below,etc....you get the point.
Sure enough as the wardrobe gods would have it, I come across, a beautiful black halter style with flared legs jumpsuit. Perfect for the upcoming New Year's party, I was attending with my then boyfriend. It was eloquent, simple, not over stated and with different shoes, I was sure I could wear it to a great club party on a summer evening! It even met the price test.
There I was staring at this garment, thinking my mother would be so disappointed in my choice. I could hear the lecture in my head on how I wasted my money on such frivolous garment. However, courage prevailed and I thought, I should at least try it on...let's face it...it would either be too short in the rise, too long in the legs, too big or too small somewhere...but what would it hurt to try it on. As well,it was on sale for 50% of its' original price. You just cannot dismiss a bargain.
So sheepishly, I slipped into the dressing room to try on my contraband item...I waited to make sure no one was looking before I stepped outside of the dressing room because I was sure the other woman would be giving me that look for wearing that jumpsuit. Let's face it, if my tribe thought jumpsuits were bad; others must think the same.
Doesn't the thing fit perfectly....not too short, not too long, not too small nor too big....the wardrobe gods are now playing hardball. To make matters worse, the sales lady comes walking in to make sure I am okay. She loves it on me and then she starts calling in other women who were in the store to come look. I had women gushing, telling me that it was made for me and I would be nuts to walk out this store without it. Wardrobe gods had the full court press on....
I stood there bewildered...They liked the jumpsuit...surely,there would be one woman who would have wise counsel and tell me different. I began to ask them " but wouldn't it be a pain to use the restroom in this?"...They now all looked at me like I was nuts...one woman told me not to be silly...it would be no more difficult than anything else I wore....Another told me if she looked that slim in it, she would buy one in every colour.
Bella is very entrenched in her tribal law; even violence can be justified.
I want to wish everyone a great holiday season. Enjoy be safe and most of all, enjoy the tribe
Monday, December 14, 2009
Wisdom
How do you stay at that higher altitude of truth and discern the wisdom of the moment?
Wisdom ,in my mind, comes after deep inner revelation of knowing where one of your reptiles resides and then riding yourself of that reptile ( My beloved Teresa). It is usually preceded by missing the mark on an issue,situation or circumstance.
We have all done it. We have all interpreted events around us completely wrong and in that moment harmed another.
So what is the force that allows us to see the truth or the wisdom, love. Not emotional love ( that is all tribal based)...it is the love that can move the mountain. You know the one I am talking about it...it is that moment of profound clarity where the circumstances line themselves up for you to move forward; physically, emotionally and spiritually.
How do you hold on until that moment shows itself?
Bella doesn't get it.
Wisdom ,in my mind, comes after deep inner revelation of knowing where one of your reptiles resides and then riding yourself of that reptile ( My beloved Teresa). It is usually preceded by missing the mark on an issue,situation or circumstance.
We have all done it. We have all interpreted events around us completely wrong and in that moment harmed another.
So what is the force that allows us to see the truth or the wisdom, love. Not emotional love ( that is all tribal based)...it is the love that can move the mountain. You know the one I am talking about it...it is that moment of profound clarity where the circumstances line themselves up for you to move forward; physically, emotionally and spiritually.
How do you hold on until that moment shows itself?
Bella doesn't get it.
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Organic Divinity
Moses heard God's voice in a burning bush, Job heard God in the wind, Paul was blinded by lighting to only hear a voice, Francis of Assisi could commune with animals....
When did we become so detached from the nature kingdom? And when we detached from that kingdom, did we detach from God?
Carolyn Myss says " look for God in the details"...
Can we hear God in our details...as we have Ipods attached to our hips, Blue tooth in our ears, Blackberry's that we need to be IMing...
Bella was born in a place call Iberia....long before technology....so interesting to write a character that would have rely on her organic divinity to live.
We have made it to page 36.
When did we become so detached from the nature kingdom? And when we detached from that kingdom, did we detach from God?
Carolyn Myss says " look for God in the details"...
Can we hear God in our details...as we have Ipods attached to our hips, Blue tooth in our ears, Blackberry's that we need to be IMing...
Bella was born in a place call Iberia....long before technology....so interesting to write a character that would have rely on her organic divinity to live.
We have made it to page 36.
Friday, December 11, 2009
Day 2 on the Blog
Okay technically savvy, I am not...I have posted three blogs with two not saying anything.
I have completed the first 30 pages of the book. I have a hand written draft but it no longer seems to be cutting it. I have totally diverted from it. This book is the first of three books. I want to play with the archetypal patterns that we are born with and are challenged by ( since history repeats itself) to see how the soul develops through different lives. I want to challenge the notion that what are experiencing today is unique to the human pysche.
I honestly am of the belief our archetypes or our graces follow us from life to life until we begin to illuminate them out of darkness....If you look at history, it is constantly cycling itself with stories of birth, destruction, death and resurrection or rebirth....and we constantly are going through that cycle...we call it recreating ourselves...
All the while hiding it in a love story with her Beloved....I am not sure if for a novice writter I bit off more than I chew...
I have completed the first 30 pages of the book. I have a hand written draft but it no longer seems to be cutting it. I have totally diverted from it. This book is the first of three books. I want to play with the archetypal patterns that we are born with and are challenged by ( since history repeats itself) to see how the soul develops through different lives. I want to challenge the notion that what are experiencing today is unique to the human pysche.
I honestly am of the belief our archetypes or our graces follow us from life to life until we begin to illuminate them out of darkness....If you look at history, it is constantly cycling itself with stories of birth, destruction, death and resurrection or rebirth....and we constantly are going through that cycle...we call it recreating ourselves...
All the while hiding it in a love story with her Beloved....I am not sure if for a novice writter I bit off more than I chew...
Thursday, December 10, 2009
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